i told beka, my roommate, who was in the same room at the time, that i was going to clean now. this was her response.


PBAdancer (7:05:08 PM): please
PBAdancer (7:05:11 PM): i love you
PBAdancer (7:05:27 PM): you have no dea how much you're hurting me right now
PBAdancer (7:05:37 PM): I feel very small
PBAdancer (7:05:49 PM): I guess my love means nothing to you
PBAdancer (7:05:55 PM): I'm sorry you have fallen
PBAdancer (7:06:10 PM): to such a sad and untouchable level
PBAdancer (7:06:21 PM): I hope you laugh when you read this
PBAdancer (7:06:33 PM): cause I know I'll start laughing if you do
PBAdancer (7:06:44 PM): so what do I have to do o make you laugh?
PBAdancer (7:06:51 PM): you should just smile
PBAdancer (7:07:04 PM): it's a lot easier to laugh if you're already smiling
PBAdancer (7:07:36 PM): unless you're around people that aren't funny then the smile becomes an awkward substitute for the laugh
PBAdancer (7:07:53 PM): but most people can tell when you're substituting it like that
PBAdancer (7:08:04 PM): it's just a thought, nothing personla
PBAdancer (7:08:08 PM): personal*
PBAdancer (7:08:21 PM): so I'm sitting here writing all this why you clean
PBAdancer (7:08:42 PM): you're making me feel like a BUM!!!!!!!
PBAdancer (7:08:54 PM): that's not very nice
PBAdancer (7:09:01 PM): but I love you anyway
PBAdancer (7:09:13 PM): even though you don't return my undying love
PBAdancer (7:09:15 PM): it's ok
PBAdancer (7:09:20 PM): I love you anyway
PBAdancer (7:09:32 PM): someday you might understand and love me to
PBAdancer (7:09:38 PM): or even just like me
PBAdancer (7:09:43 PM): that's better that nothing
PBAdancer (7:09:57 PM): I can't imagine you would though
PBAdancer (7:10:21 PM): I think I'll just go jump off the balcony now........life is not worth living without your love
PBAdancer (7:10:31 PM): *sniff, sniff*
PBAdancer (7:10:39 PM): *sigh* ok, here I go
PBAdancer (7:10:48 PM): I'm jumping now
PBAdancer (7:10:55 PM): I'll see you in the afterlife
PBAdancer (7:11:10 PM): wow....I'm falling quickly to the ground
PBAdancer (7:11:16 PM): this is going to hurt
PBAdancer (7:11:32 PM): I didn't make it to the road so I probably won't even die
PBAdancer (7:11:36 PM): that's annoying
PBAdancer (7:11:52 PM): I should have brought a knife with me to finish off the job
PBAdancer (7:12:05 PM): are you happy?!?!?! this is what you pushed me to!!!
PBAdancer (7:12:30 PM): look me in the eye and tell me that you don't find me attractive!!!!!
PBAdancer (7:12:34 PM): just try it!
PBAdancer (7:12:40 PM): I know the result
PBAdancer (7:12:49 PM): you won't be able to say it!
PBAdancer (7:13:05 PM): and if you do you know you'll be laughing
PBAdancer (7:13:12 PM): and lieing
PBAdancer (7:13:24 PM): and if you don't realize it I will for you
PBAdancer (7:13:30 PM): but by then it'll be to late
PBAdancer (7:13:45 PM): but don't worry
PBAdancer (7:13:53 PM): I'll be dead soon anyway
PBAdancer (7:14:21 PM): how did you like the novel I just wrote
PBAdancer (7:14:27 PM): dang....not to shabby
PBAdancer (7:14:36 PM): hahah
PBAdancer (7:14:51 PM): slightly depressing but I was in a zone and words were just flowing
PBAdancer (7:14:56 PM): you know how it goes
PBAdancer (7:15:00 PM): whatev
PBAdancer (7:15:13 PM): I don't know any of these Beatles songs
PBAdancer (7:15:24 PM): I like I ust don't know them
PBAdancer (7:15:30 PM): just*
PBAdancer (7:15:37 PM): I like your bangs
PBAdancer (7:15:41 PM): their pretty
PBAdancer (7:15:43 PM): fyi
PBAdancer (7:15:57 PM): whatdid your family/friends say about your nose ring?
PBAdancer (7:16:07 PM): they didn't know you had it right?
PBAdancer (7:16:13 PM): maybe I'm wrong
PBAdancer (7:16:17 PM): I can't remember
PBAdancer (7:16:25 PM): hehehe
PBAdancer (7:16:30 PM): you're funny
PBAdancer (7:16:38 PM): you're talking about honey
PBAdancer (7:16:40 PM): :-)
PBAdancer (7:16:59 PM): I wish you could be me and listen to you talk all the time because it's funny!!
PBAdancer (7:17:07 PM): you make me laugh
PBAdancer (7:17:09 PM): a lot
PBAdancer (7:17:12 PM): ok
PBAdancer (7:17:19 PM): I think that's enough for now
PBAdancer (7:17:27 PM): this will take you a while to read

i missed her.